Alea Jecta Est ...

Trying very hard to maintain my rational and my sane.

Trying very hard to lost in the voice of Cynthia McCorkindale and the tunes of Paris.

Trying very hard to focus.

Trying very hard to smile.

Trying very hard to find a decent site to surf.

Trying very hard to feel normal.

...


I am scared to talk to my dad.
(But I feel his raw pain from here.)

I am scared to look outside my room.
(Coz it's no longer how it's used to be.)

I am scared to sleep.
(I know I will cry again.)

I am scared to face tomorrow.
(Oh..where shall I go?)

I am scared.
(I am sad.)

...


Do you know what does Alea Jecta Est means?


"The Die Is Cast."
-Julius Caesar.


If the bigger the count means the winning.


Mine is obviously the tiniest count.



What luck.